Memories worth remembering...

There are not many highschool memories I have that are worth remembering, life was not easy for me at that time. Between stresses at home , and then school in itself I was a pretty sad teenager. Then something remarkable happened, well someone remarkable happened.

I had tried out for the musical Brigadoon. So almost everyday I was in rehearsal and part of the tech crew was this guy named James Robison. For two teens it was pretty obvious that we liked each other, it didn't hurt that we had a mutual friend (who I am still trying to find, Jason Campo). We started to hang out, and eventually started going out.

James treated me as if I was a queen, he was always polite, sweet, and kind. I had mistakenly thought that he only saw me as just a friend and therefore I broke up with him. The only good thing is , is that we remained friends. We still hung out together and talked, as if nothing had changed.

About a year ago I found him on myspace. I was nervous he would not remember who I was. I was wrong, boy was I wrong. Not only did he remember me, but I had broke up with him under false pretenses. I had felt he wasnt into me because he had yet to kiss me, yet we had dated for quite awhile. The only reason he hadnt kissed me was his shyness. After we had broke up we took a trip to Columbus Ohio to see Jason, that trip had inspired him to write a poem, and finally after over a decade he shared this poem with me, and with his permission I am posting it on here. Not only does it make me cry but it also reminds me that I was right in using James as my standard when dating others. Without further delay... Here is the most amazing thing ever written about me.

SLEEPING ANGEL ON THE HIGHWAY
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cars fly by the window
as she sleeps next to me.
to touch her would be a sin,
to kiss her a blasphemy.

streetlights shine on shadows and curves
she stirs and sleeps again
as i wish on a million stars above
this ride never had to end.

i kneel at her altar
for the beauty i have found
as she sits there softly dreaming
without even making a sound.

i'd die to stay with her
if i thought it would change a thing.
i try to be worthy of her presence
by offering gifts that i bring.

i watch in utter agony
as she walks away from me.
i guess again tonight i lose,
tonight her grace i won't see.



It was I who did not deserve him, and I truely hurt for the pain I caused him by not letting him know that he won and that if I had any grace, it was because he loved me, and I him.

Thats how my first love is summed up, one of the most beautiful memories of my life as well as my past. James has always and continues to be my favorite ex. Not only does he have a wonderful wife but he also is a awesome Daddy to his little girl and I am blessed to have him in my life so we both could get some unanswered questions the closure they needed.